Lord, I need You

LORD, I NEED YOU

matt maher

Lord, i come, i confess

bowing here i find my rest

without You i fall apart

you're the One that guides my heart

Lord, i need You, oh, i need You

every hour i need You

my one defense, my righteousness

oh God, how i need You

where sin runs deep Your grace is more

where grace is found is where You are

and where You are, Lord, i am free

holiness is Christ in me

Lord, i need You, oh, i need You

every hour i need You

my one defense, my righteousness

oh God, how i need You

teach my song to rise to You

when temptation comes my way

and when i cannot stand i'll fall on You

Jesus, You're my hope and stay

Lord, i need You, oh, i need You

every hour i need You

my one defense, my righteousness

oh God, how i need You

just because

this is actually an old photo. two summer's ago i think...but i like it. it was a beautiful location that i would really like to go back to. you can't tell from here but the water was a deep navy blue shade. surrounded by the greenery of trees. not a house in site...that i remember. beautiful.

in one minute, out the next.

i think i need to do some brain and memory exercises. it seems that my "baby brain" is not so much a temporary situation after all. i have thoughts that pop into my head and before i can even get them out - written or spoken - they slip through some crack into the depths of forgottenness. once in a while i can pull them back out but most of the time they are just gone. for example, i had a great blog post idea just minutes ago while i was walking around the house getting ready to sit down at the computer. now that i have emptied my bladder, grabbed the computer, plugged it in to charge and sat down, the idea is gone. so i will continue to blog...about nothing at all.

feelings are very temporary, overall. just a few months ago (four to be exact) i remember feeling like nothing would ever go back to "normal." okay, in a lot of ways they won't go back to normal. it's a new normal. i remember nights of her sleeping on me on the couch (not all night...but several hours) and thinking that i might never get to sleep in bed with jay again. well, we passed that stage. pretty quickly i might add. she has been sleeping in her crib for weeks now. and she has slept through the night at least 5-10 times now. i also remember feeling like each day was random and unpredictable. now, we have quite a decent daily routine and even weekly. i have to remind myself each time i get a undesirable feeling that it is just temporary and soon will be a thing of the past. even the pain and soreness that i feel as a result of pumping milk for grace, will someday be but a memory...

because this post has quickly become very random, i will continue with my non-connected thoughts. september has become another favorite month. may and september are two of the most pleasant months of the year in my book. the weather is still warm, but not typically as humid and uncomfortable as the main summer months (though folks, let's remember that summer technically goes until the 21st). okay, it might just be that this september is one of my favorites. clearly may was a favorite - my sweet grace entered the world that month. and now that i think of it, i have been inside the majority of the past three days of september. and they happen to be hotter days of the month so far. but still. i like september.

that is all for now. maybe i will remember what i was originally going to write about. maybe.