16 August 2009

lynn/boston 2009.

"You, my brothers, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the sinful nature; rather, serve one another in love." (Galatians 5:13)


this verse was the theme verse for our week in lynn, from august 2-9. the week focused on the word "free" and what that means for us as Christians. sometimes that means not just freedom to do things, but freedom from things. through our morning devotionals, through club (time of sharing and worship and listening to a message as a whole group), but also through our church time and through our experiences of service each day, "free" developed new meaning in our lives. i can say that for myself, and i know that in observing our youth, i can say it for them too. some of us started this trip with a lot of baggage and junk in our lives. maybe for some, we came with fears and feelings of failure. and maybe others still, just came. regardless of how or why we came, God worked in us and through us and broke our hearts.

some groups worked with the kids club program right at the church we were staying at. other groups went to a local boys and girls club and built relationships with kids there. another group spent their time in more of a nursing home setting, working with elderly with alzheimers at an adult day care center. my group, the chocolate munckins, had more of a diverse week. we spent our first day, monday, at an organization called north shore arc. its a non-profit organization that strives to provide equality and opportunites to individuals with disabilities. our day was spent working in the day care playing with kids. our second day was also spent serving north shore arc. however, we did yard work at a group home that is run by the organization. we pulled lots of weeds. for me, it was a great time to see the kids work together and accomplish a task. it was tiring, we got dirty, it was hot. but, we also got to meet a massachusetts congressman, representative john tierney. he talked with us about what we were doing this week and why, what each of the kids wants to do in the future. we expected him to come work with us, but he showed up in shirt and tie. he spoke like a typical politician, but it was still interesting. our 3rd and 4th days were spent working at a local soup kitchen called 'my brothers table' (i tend to accidentally call it 'my fathers kitchen'...don't be confused). this was a challenging site. we dealt with two staff members who on the first day, really tested our patience. i kept reminding my kids to think about the people we are serving (literally, serving the food to) and not who we are working with. we all came in on the fourth day having prayed for a better experience, and kind of dreading what we thought would be another frustrating day. but it was a much more positive experience and i think we broke down whatever front graham (man in charge) puts up and we got to see his heart and why he does what he does. i was so proud of our kids, seeing their strong desire to talk with people who came to ate...to hear their stories, no matter how sad and hard it was.

my blogging about this weeks experience cannot and will not do it justice. myself and the other leaders who were there were and are so incredibly blessed by our group. these "kids" (for lack of a better word) have incredible heart and display such mature faith. each night, as our church group, we spent a couple of hours reflecting on the day. with tears in their eyes and sometimes difficulty even speaking, they shared their experiences. they worry about some of the kids they met and worked with, unsure of their futures as many of them come from broken homes and are surrounded by gangs. they wonder who is going to visit some of these elderly people once we leave. they realize how much we have - not just physical and tangible things.

on our last night in lynn, as part of club, we had a foot washing service. tony (the youth works staff who lead worship and spoke each night) began by reading john 13 and talking about jesus washing his disciples feet. it proceeded with the youth works staff washing the feet of each of us leaders, and praying over us. then as church groups, we leaders washed the feet of our youth and prayed over them. this was a powerful, unforgettable, yet humbling experience. what was so beautiful for me to hear (and see a little bit, though i was mostly busy washing and praying), was the love and support that our kids gave each other. friends hugging friends while they struggled and cried is one thing, a beautiful thing too. but to see kids who aren't even really friends, embracing one another and praying with each other, still brings a smile to my heart.

this missions trip was one of the best weeks of my life, hands down. i knew that the week had the potential to work in my life. i don't think i knew the extent of how much it would. God is good. i encourage anyone who comes in contact with any of the youth, or even the leaders, who went on this trip to ask them about their experience. and don't just settle for a "good" when you ask how the trip was.

(yes, i realize i have not even begun to speak of the weekend that followed our week of service...our 3 days on martha's vineyard...i will get to that).

van members of the "jill jalopy".

brittany with anya.

emily, schuyler, brittany, allison, jamie, jess, and myself at nahant beach.

the chocolate munchkins (woot woot!) on breakfast clean up duty.

amy and shannon getting dirty planting flowers at the group home.

emily, shannon, jamie and schulyer at quincy market in downtown boston.

my chocolate munchkins - shannon, katelyn, emily, jamie, brittany, chris, amy, garrett, jon.

views of lynn, massachusetts.

the entire group - 2 groups from michigan, and our jersey kids.

view of the water at gloucester beach.

last morning - tony (youth works staff) leading some 80's aerobics.

myself with jared, an amazing kid from the community of lynn.

11 August 2009

welcome back.

i've just been away from the work world for 17 days. i promise pictures, and lots of words...but give me a few days.

01 August 2009

17 days off...

9 days down, 8 to go. but that is in no way a countdown to look forward to. it is more of a, enjoy every single moment of it. because that following monday, back at work, is going to be dreadful. i might be ready for some "normal life" by then...but not so sure work needs to be included in that.

the house is strangely quiet. for the past week i have been in a house with 10 other people. suddenly, i am back at my home and aside from the sound of the air conditioner and the mets game in the background, it is silent. my parents are probably in the air on their way to california as i write. as much as i can enjoy some alone time, i personally miss the noise and constant socialization.

so our week in the outer banks was just fabulous. i had a really good time. my mom must have noticed, cause she kept saying to me, "you are really enjoying this aren't you jill?" aside from missing some special people, not much else could have made it better. lots of time at the beach and pool. some kayaking. some waverunning. plenty of relaxing. dinner and devotions with family. flying kites. catching crabs. swinging on the hammock. watching thunderstorms. God is good. this past week was exactly what i needed.

and now i am doing some last minute preparations for my next 8 days off - missions trip with our high school youth group to lynn, ma (just outside of boston) for some service and then a long weekend at martha's vineyard. i'm not convinced i have packed everything i need, but in some ways, i don't care. i'm there to serve and not worry about whether i wore this shirt 3 days ago or not.

i guess i'll put some photos from the week...

drew getting the hang of skimboarding...

i think liesl got the hang of the hammock pretty quickly...

sunrise over the sound...



with my nieces by the turtles...

jacki being silly...

11 July 2009

photos from the past few months...in reverse order.

planting job in franklin lakes with frankie, minor, and mexico.

rebecca and me by the sea lions at central park zoo.

i was joking when i told them to kiss as they posed by the sunset, but they took me seriously.

echs graduation with some of my girls.

linC olympics - kelsey, brianne, kristen traub, kristen lindsay, katelyn, schuyler.

steel force at dorney park w/ linC - no me gusta!

arrielle's birthday party at our state track meet.

city grace church in nyc with linC.

branchbrook park, newark, nj for cherry blossom festival.

happy birthday to me! serendipity with some of my favorite people.

ecms girls basketball 2008-2009 - thanking our team manager with some high fives.

21 June 2009

by your side.

i know that i promised photos, and i will get to that soon - maybe even this week. but for now, just some song lyrics. its a song by tenth avenue north called 'by your side' that the 8th graders of ECMS sang this past week at graduation...

BY YOUR SIDE

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away
Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run
And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life
Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

20 May 2009

side note.

my blog has almost no pictures remaining on my first page. i will fix that soon. be patient.

17 May 2009

all things.

i spent the fall semester of my junior in kenya, east africa. (followed in my middle sister's footsteps - thank you kate for letting me share that experience) one of our weekend excursions was to climb mt. kenya. what an amazing adventure that was, to say the least. one of the things i remember is a friend of mine repeating "all things" throughout the trek, though most frequently at the more difficult and exhausting parts. "all things" being a phrase from paul's letter to the philippians in chapter 4:13. its a very familiar passage. in this case, it was a source of strength and inspiration and a reminder not to give up.

i am part of a bible study that has been looking at the book of philippians for past few months. it is full of a lot of familiar passages, but often read them with the same old eyes and heart and mind as always and interpret it as we always have. i know i do. philippians 4:13 in particular is often used as a verse of encouragement. we apply it to times when we have a goal that we want to accomplish and look to it for strength and focus. this past weeks study included this verse, "i can do everything (all things) through Him who gives me strength." one of our bible study members had a bible with a different translation. i wish i had the exact wording, but it said something like, i can do everything that He calls me to do through Him who gives me strength.

how often do we...no, how often do i decide what it is i want to do and then look to God to provide me with the strength to accomplish it? i think i am really quite good at it actually. and then in those times when i didn't feel strong, my mind immediately wonders where God was. i know i am not the only one to live this way - i think its a common mentality. sometimes i strive for things that God does not necessarily call me to, or intend for me. i've never felt very good at discerning what God's will is for me. sometimes i struggle with hearing other people's claim at God's will for them (when it seems like they use it for something they just want to do). but who am i to judge?

if you know me at all, you know that i have a hard time with this - what am i supposed to be doing? what job is God calling me to? right now i feel very little purpose for me in my job. but i am so tired of changing my mind, finding something new thinking that this is "it", only to feel empty a bit later. but the whole, try to have a positive attitude mentality isn't really working in my current situation anymore. i am trying to incorporate the two - "all things" and doing what He calls me to do.

(this got very random - as usual)