carpe diem.

i have never been big on the hype of new years eve and new years resolutions. so when a friend of mine began to ask me about my goals and such for 2010, i honestly hadn't thought too much about it. but i found myself able to express some "resolutions" quite easily - not at all typical resolutions such as losing 10 pounds, or stop biting nails, or whatever it may be. as i talked about some of it, the commonly quoted latin phrase came to mind - carpe diem...seize the day.

aside from the crazyness of the holiday season, my life is pretty busy right now. i don't say that out of pride or boastfully - it is not necessarily good or bad. i find that all of the things i am involved in to be good and worthwhile and rewarding things. what i think is dangerous is when i let the busyness control my life, when it seems as though i just let it dictate the direction my life takes. i want to step back and prayerfully evaluate who i am and what i do and why. i want to be intentional and not just let things happen.

our high school youth group has the opportunity to serve on a missions trip to ghana, west africa. i wasn't considering going, even though i love africa and culture. i kept telling myself that i couldn't take off the time from work. a few weeks ago, something began to stir inside of me and i realized that i have absolutely no reason not to go. my excuse of not being able to miss that much work was actually just fear. i was letting busyness decide for me. a job, which i do not even really like, was about to prevent me from a once in a lifetime opportunity. carpe diem - i am going to ghana for 10 days in march.

i have not completely seized the day yet. i haven't taken the step towards quitting my job just yet. but i am fairly confident that its in the near future. i have to take one hurdle at a time - not let fear and busyness take control of my life, but faith in God's plan for me.