26 August 2011

#26

jay and i pulled into their driveway a little bit after 8pm last night - running "fashionably late" - and were so warmly welcomed into the lovely home of frank and erica delalla (frank is jay's pastor and long time friend) for our double date game night. their two beautiful children, julia and franky, were already in bed so that after a little bit of chit chat and laughter we could start our game of monopoly.

the first hour or so we played sitting on the ground around the living room coffee table. but eventually our bodies complained - our butts were numb, my feet fell asleep from sitting on them, backs were aching - and we moved the game to the dining room table. we went from playing nicely with each other as we considerately didn't buy what we know our competitor wanted to buying whatever we landed on in order to bargain and deal later. pizza rolls and mini tacos were followed up with brownies. the more we filled out stomachs the more we wanted to satisfy our greed as we built houses and hotels and collected as much rent as possible.

erica quickly took control of the game as she owned all four railroads. jay and i split the most desirable locations - he had the boardwalk and i had park avenue. but frank was strategically putting house after house on all of his streets. jail became a desired destination because for a few turns it kept us safe from having to pay our opponents. deals were being made right and left, but soon most of mine were made just so that i could survive. frank discovered that despite our initial thoughts, the treasure chest and chance cards do not always have positive results. suddenly i was out of money and was left to the role of the banker. even though jay now had possession of both the boardwalk and park place, he soon had spent all of his money and given everything away. it was down to erica (who owned just about everything, having collected both my and jay's locations) and frank. despite her sweet and generous attempts, erica cleaned frank out of all his money too and became the winner of the evening.

two and a half hours later, i had completed number 26 of my '30 by 30' list - we had completed a game of monopoly, which i don't think i had ever had the patience to do before. it didn't matter that i lost. we had a good time with a great couple and had barely spent any money at all! so thanks to erica, frank, and jay for a wonderful evening and for being a part of my '30 by 30'!

my apologies for this internet photo. i was planning on taking a photo of each of the 30 items, but i partly forgot and tiredness had kicked in. you get the idea.

23 August 2011

just Jill.

i thought i would just take a minute to explain the title of my blog, just jill. i guess i never did. well, better late than never?

i suppose it could be interpreted in a variety of ways. the first one isn't an intentional meaning but it still works now that i am thinking about it. i am "just jill", no spouse or kids or family unit. of course my family (both immediate and extended) is a big part of me, so in a lot of ways i am a package deal. you can't really experience me without my family - it just doesn't happen.

the second and intentional meaning behind it is quite simple. my name is "just jill". i do not have a middle name and jill is not short for a longer first name (such as jillian). i am literally just jill.

the third, but also intentional meaning, has to do more with who i am. i am nothing fancy or complicated. i am not trying to be something or someone that i am not. i am not going to try to impress you with words or outer appearance or anything of the sort. it doesn't take much to make me smile or for me to have a good time. so in this way, i am just jill.

21 August 2011

much ado about nothing.

this has nothing to do with shakespeare's comedy, much ado about nothing. in fact, this post (or any post for that matter) has very little to do about anything at all - hence, much ado about nothing. so on that note, i will jump right into it...into nothing...

lately i find myself battling two extremes: pride and inadequacy (not feeling good enough). the two may seem so opposite that they couldn't possibly co-exist, and yet they stem from the same root and even appear to thrive off of each other. both are rooted in sin and reflect a skewed perspective of our relationship with and to God.

pride is sinful because it takes our focus off of God and shifts it to ourselves. we take credit for things we have no right to. all that we are and all that we do is a gift from God. our ability to live and breath and work and learn and play and so on and so forth - it is all from God. there is another avenue of pride that is equally as sinful. it can be seen in how we relate to others and our tendency to judge. this kind of pride is harmful as it puts divisions between us. it often creates an "us" and "them" attitude. pride needs to die inside of me.

inadequacy, for lack of a better word at the moment, and that feeling of not being good enough is sinful because it belittle's God and His power. it neglects to see and accept grace; it forgets the work of Jesus and His death on the cross. the truth is that we are not good enough, my ourselves. but because of Jesus and the work of the Holy Spirit, we are good enough. each of us has weaknesses but when we work together for His kingdom, we overcome each others weaknesses and help each other grow and strengthen them.

humility is a lifelong lesson, for me at least. humility allows us to be confident in Christ.

here i am, humbled by Your majesty
covered by Your grace so free.
here i am, knowing i'm a sinful man
covered by the blood of the Lamb

now i've found the greatest love of all is mine
since You laid down Your life,
the greatest sacrifice

majesty, majesty
Your grace has found me just as i am
empty handed by alive in Your hands
we sing
majesty, majesty
forever i am changed by Your love
in the beauty of Your majesty

here i am, humbled by the love that You give
forgiven so that i can forgive.
so here i stand, knowing that i'm Your desire
sanctified by glory and fire.

now i've found the greatest love of all is mine
since You laid down Your life,
the greatest sacrifice

majesty, majesty
Your grace has found me just as i am
empty handed by alive in Your hands
we sing
majesty, majesty
forever i am changed by Your love
in the beauty of Your majesty
("majesty" - hillsong united)

more nothingness - some photos from kayaking yesterday at monksville reservoir with jay





starting september 1st i am going to begin item #19 on my '30 by 30' list, reading through the old testament. i cannot promise a daily blog, but i do intend to share reflections as i journey through those books which all point to Jesus.

20 August 2011

in reverse order, cause that's how it seems to work...

shepherds lake

yankee game with botbyls and sikkema kids, and jay

what a view, what a stadium

times square

jackie, drew, keith and emily - family is a blessing

the chrysler building

world trade center reconstruction in progress



palm trees in rockefeller center, a little bit different than the christmas decor i am used to seeing in december


keith and emiliy were engaged on the ice about 3 1/2 years ago, their first time back

06 August 2011

the music in my head...

songs and tunes randomly pop into my head all of the time. most of the time i have no idea where it comes from but suddenly i am humming or singing a song. it doesn't usually have a connection to anything that i am doing or thinking or talking about. a friend of mine just told me yesterday that lately i just start singing one of the main songs from home alone. it has happened a few times and i didn't even realize i was doing it. but oftentimes it is a hymn that pops up. not necessarily a common hymn that i would have sang recently but a much older one that i may recall from growing up in the CRC church. i can't help but wonder, what is going on in my brain at that moment when it happens? does God get into my head and make me recall words and melodies that are meant for me at that moment?

we recently sang a new song at restore that seems to have stuck in my head. it pops into my head at least once a day, if not more. there must be a reason for that, right? here it is...

You are good, You are good
when there's nothing good in me
You are love, You are love
on display for all to see
You are light, You are light
when the darkness closes in
You are hope, You are hope
You have covered all my sin

You are peace, You are peace
when my fear is crippling
You are true, You are true
even in my wandering
You are joy, You are joy
You're the reason that i sing
You are life, You are life
in You death has lost its sting

oh, i'm running to Your arms
i'm running to Your arms
the riches of Your love will always be enough
nothing compares to Your embrace
light of the world forever reign

You are more, You are more
than my words will ever say
You are Lord, You are Lord
all creation will proclaim
You are here, You are here
in Your presence i'm made whole
You are God, You are God
of all else i'm letting go

oh, i'm running to Your arms
i'm running to Your arms
the riches of Your love will always be enough
nothing compares to Your embrace
light of the world forever reign

my heart will sing
no other name
Jesus, Jesus

oh, i'm running to Your arms
i'm running to Your arms
the riches of Your love will always be enough
nothing compares to Your embrace
light of the world forever reign
(forever reign - jason ingram, ruben morgan)